A note to my future Boyfriend (s). “I love you”
A note to my future boyfriend (s). “I love you”
Hi everyone, I hope you are all well.
I’m sat here on my bed thinking about all the relationships I’ve had and how bad they were. None of them ended in a good way. I know that breakups are hard. In most situation, depending on who you are and how you view this; breakups are harder on females. I feel like a girl/woman is usually the one to invest a lot in a relationship. She is the one who has the most to loose in any and every part of a relationship.
Side note; I have not been in a relationship for over a year now and this is out of preference and also because I have not met anyone good enough.
I realized that in all my relationship I have always been the one giving and helping. Nothing wrong with giving and helping BUT!, I also want to receive and be helped. I am the type to wants to see my man happy and looking good, I get so involved in my relationships and invest so much time and energy, that other aspects of my life begin to suffer because all my attention have been channeled to my relationship. That should not be the case. I should be able find a balance or at least make it 50-60. Be able to prioritize and know the right time to pull back and pay attention to something or someone else who needs it.
However, I don’t want to change who I am. Nothing wrong with caring, loving and supporting, But I’m tired of it. I want a change. Need, I need a change. I want to feel cared for, to feel loved. I don’t want to have to worry about you and other girls. People say all men are the same, they all cheat. I’m beginning to believe that. If I feel secured in my relationship and a guy does not put me in a position of where I have to suspect he is cheating, then I’ll be fine. But Nooo… you stay out late and give a very child like excuse and when I get angry or question you, you have the audacity to say I’m over reacting or over thinking the situation. Really?!!!!!!
So I’m done with fruitless relationships, I’m done with one sided relationships. Saying you love me is not going to cut it anymore. If you love me then show it. Don’t ask me how, just show it because saying”I love you” ain’t gonna cut it. There has to be more that follows that sentence. You’re not going to keep taking from me and giving nothing in return and hope that you saying you love me is enough. It isn’t . So if you don’t have anything else to offer please exit stage left. Thank you.
Yes I’m going to be selfish, yes I am putting my happiness first. yes I don’t give two F**ks about your feelings. This is me time. If you don’t like it, then please remove yourself from my environment. I am going to be happy because I choose to be happy. You will not get a second chance to hurt me or make me feel like I need to check myself. I am a woman, I am strong, I am independent, I will be happy with or without you, matter of fact I will be happier without you. “Yes I am soft and pink” as Wendy Williams would say, I do need the comfort of a man. But Know this I would take nothing less than what I deserve and if you can not provide what I need, then you don’t deserve me. we don’t deserve each other. Get it? ok.
That’s it for this post.
ummm…. I don’t have any questions. If you have a comment or suggestion please leave it below.
As always Thank you for taking the time to read this.